Hi guys! It's been awhile since we last see each other virtually. I haven't been writing a lot due to work. I can't write at work. I tried it before, but too many distractions so yeah, I'd rather stay away from work and besides, this blog is not related to work anyways.
I am here in Montreal for a vacay (like I know right?) but I do miss my hometown more than ever. Being too far of the map in a different timezone (12 hours difference), it's like a bit of a torture between me and my Panda bear and my little brothers.
But at times, being in this relationship makes you think about a lot of stuff and you're dreading for that things to happen. You're scared to lose the people who'll make you feel safe and sane in this chaotic world.
It's been a couple of days, and I still couldn't keep up with the pace I put myself and my Panda in. he has work which is like falling in to the same timezone (he's working from 8.30pm - 6, I think, back in our country). I have to take deep breaths for this to work. I have to just take a deep breath and not mind every negative thoughts inside my head.
We haven't seen each other for a year and a couple of months now and it get's harder to hold on. It's like that Garrison Stable quest in World of Warcraft, when you go way to far, the rope will blink red and snap, there it goes. The only thing is, in this life you gotta learn how to hold on no matter how hard it is, if there is still love left.
Communication is hard due to time difference and work, but if there's a will there's a way right? If there is no other way... Let's just leave it to batman(!). It will work, if the two people would still love to continue.
Just missing him so bad.
~M~
